if only you were the zombie on l4d.

i'd shoot you down, even after you're dead.

till i have no more bullets.

even then i'd stay there and use my frying pan to smash you i swear.

even if i have to lose my life after the boys revive me a million times.

you have no idea how much you've hurt me. how much i miss you.

how shitty i feel.

over working myself and studying.

just to stop these tears.

just to stop feeling so angry.

just to stop feeling so disgusted at myself for staying by you all along.

i seriously miss you like hell but i will never come back to a person like you, ever.

doesn't it sound like how i feel bout someone i knew all my life?

"where i used to care, there is only air."