it's been awhile since i've felt this way.

the.. watch and read twilight non stop feeling.

2 years ago, i was at that point.

and somehow, i find myself slowly going back there.

my body system's just becoming wack, i think.

work is just exhausting and i find it hard to get some rest without jerking up every other hour in the middle of the night.

i actually feel sad, like very sad.

and i don't know who to turn to.

h, i never did stop thinking of you.

i miss you.

i wish you never left.

lonely |ˈlōnlē|adjective ( -lier , -liest )sad because one has no friends or company

where are you?

i miss you so bad now.

okay, i officially need to start saving money.

for..

1. new clothes

2. new old clothes

3. new piercings

4. tattoo

5.a whole new make up kit

andddd..

thats it i think.

anybody need a babysitter/dog walker?

it happens every 26th, every January.

knowingly or unknowingly.

i'm at my lowest.

people struggle.

and sometimes they just need a little help.

however much i say i hate you and all that..

just watching you today made me miss you so very much.

especially when it's this month.

h, i miss you, so much.

why'd you do this?

i am disgusted by every word that comes out of your mouth these days, every statement, tweet, even your voice.

and i am disgusted by every memory of you.

i wish you never ever entered my life, really.

you're plain disgusting.

oh my god h, you're a fucking assholeeeee.

i can't believe you could actually say something like this.

hugging you and kissing you wasn't for fun.

it was all not a joke, i gave my heart to you.

i really wish you get so fucking hurt one day.

so so so so hurt and broken hearted.

cos you really need to know how i feel.

it's only time that you'll know how painful it is.

and yes, i do believe in karma, i'm not taking my words back.

you really amaze me, really.

you're a walking lie, a very big one.

you're damn eew, seriously.

i think you say the same things to every other girl.

and i actually thought what we had was special and unique.

how stupid of me.

i actually believed all your sweet nothings.

h, there are times when i really feel sad and alone.

and when i do, i really wish you never came into my life.

i really really dislike you.

walked home, all exhausted in tears today.

why did you even come into my life?

i was totally fine without your existence 2 years back.

and you had to come in and make a huge mess out of my life.

i'm stuck here now in this freaking island, in this messed up state cos i freaking wanted to be near you.

i just cant stand your existence anymore.

how do you even sleep at night after doing this to someone?

as far as i'm concerned, you will always be a jerk.