I know I'm not pretty enough, rich enough, slim enough, funny enough, small enough, light enough. Not the best hugger, not the best kisser, not the best company,not the best girl, not all that. And, knowing all of that, I still have no clue why I'm even fighting for someone/something, who/which is not even mine in the first place.

16 Dec, Please come so soon?

deep down inside, I wish to be yours.
just yours, only yours.
but deeper down inside, I know I'm not lucky or fortunate enough.

i wait, wait every, 6 weeks or so, without fail. wait for that particular weekend. diligently plan it to be empty or "plan-less" like i always say when you ask what i am up to.

i think i create excuses for you, really think i do sometimes. i cant help feel that way, feel like i'm living in this huge lie. where you're just moving forward and i'm stuck here, watching you go.

so many different movies we wanted to watch together, supposed to watch together. i never did, till today. you've watched them all already.

i had the march holidays, 4 weeks of june holidays. september holidays are almost over.
how else do i justify this?

cash converters bag, wearing the simplest of clothing, nothing branded, no jewelry, nothing, just waiting for the bus.
2 days ago, I saw this girl, at the bus interchange.
she reminded me of someone I used to know.
someone, I can never forget.

anyway that was before this happened.












dearest ezlink,
i miss you terribly already. without you i am broke-er-er and poor-er-er-er by the day cause i have to pay damn adult fare! and my photobooth pics, i miss not looking at you everyday too.
so, asswipes out there, i would appreciate if you read particulary,
"IF FOUND, PLEASE RETURN IT TO ANY TRANSITLINK TICKET OFFICE"

"and I come in here and I sit in silence and hear the echoes of who we used to be. and so I wish for patience. and grace. and strength. to just, let him be happy. and mostly, I pray for the strength to not make his life worse, cause of what I want.
that's the toughest part, letting go yknow?
that's the part, that is crazy, that really sucks"

This big wall.
It's staring straight at me.
And I'm still walking.

Text Buddy:
A person you can text no matter what
It doesn't matter if you/they are single you stay text buddies forever

I am slowly coming to terms with myself, that I am one.

Please take me back to the year 1987? (:

I wanna watch Little Mermaid right now right now :&

I, miss the day we first hung out.
I, miss the day you took me somewhere so beautiful and just sat there with me.
I, miss the day we played around like little children, watching stars.
I, miss those nights you'd call, just to say goodnight.

I, hoped we'd say more to each other.
I, hoped you'd stay a little longer.
I, hoped we'd leave together.

I, miss you.
I, want to stop hoping.
I, wish you'd see.

every word from you has only made me more, inquisitive?
and i too, wouldn't trade you away for anything else(: